Hi
Sorry that this post will be short, but I’m really tired cause I didn’t sleep all night. If I wake up later, maybe I’ll write something longer.
I listened to this song all day at school:
Ya No Hay Verano - Depresión Sonora
Well, today I went to school. It was okay, nothing special. I saw a few friends but we didn’t talk for long. I didn’t eat lunch, but when I got home, I went straight to sleep, and now I’m up for a bit before I go to sleep again. I think I’m starting to feel like a vampire. It’d be nice to have more time for reading.
I got an account on Bluesky cause my friend told me to. It’s small and not so crazy like X, so I’ll try it. I don’t post much, but I’ll give it a try.
Here’s my link: https://bsky.app/profile/zoska-smierc.bsky.social
That’s all. Good night.
(Daily) - [15.11.2024, 22:48]
Hi friends, good evening.
Sorry for writing so late, everything has been a bit messed up lately. Last night I didn’t sleep at all, I only went to bed at 8 in the morning and woke up at 12 noon. Actually, I don’t remember exactly what I was doing during the night. Somewhere around 1 AM I took some methlphenidate, but it started messing me up a bit, so I took some Xanax my brother left at my house. I felt good, I wrote all night, but nothing good enough to share.
I was tired all day, but luckily my classes were canceled. I could stay at home again and sleep. While I was awake, I read a little about medieval German history. I took this book called Universitätsstift und Kollegium in Prag, Wien und Heidelberg: eine vergleichende Untersuchung spätmittelalterlicher Stiftungen im Spannungsfeld von Herrschaft und Genossenschaft when I was at the library (Jagiellońska). It has such a long title, but the book is really fascinating. I’m not that far into it yet, but I think this will help me with my project.
I haven’t eaten today yet. I think I’ll go find something in the kitchen. If I’m still awake, maybe I’ll write another post.
Take care.
(Daily) - [14.11.2024, 23:30]
My name
forgot itself.
And my joints crack,
like the walls of the Ottomans,
which sank in silence.
Sarmatia,
forget my name.
(Poems) - [13.11.2024]
Good day,
It’s already noon in my city, but it’s really cold outside. When I go outside, I feel like I’m freezing. Because of this, I decided to let you know what’s up with me.
This morning I missed the train to school, but I didn’t want to wait for the next one, so I went back home. My dad is not here now, so I am safe from getting hit in the head, haha! I don’t like my school or my friends. Everyone there is so dumb. I wish I knew people who are smart, but you can’t find them here. These apartment blocks only produce the lowest minds.
Right now I am reading about the German university system of Humboldt. It has two main principles: ‘Wissenschaft’ and ‘Bildung’. The first one, ‘Wissenschaft’, is very important for my favorite authors like Hegel, Fichte, Goethe, Schleiermacher, etc. I want to do a conceptual history (‘Begriffsgeschichte’) of this term in relation to the German university.
The history of universities in Europe is very interesting. At the beginning, in medieval universities, they studied the trivium: grammar, rhetoric, and logic. Then they moved on to studying the quadrivium: arithmetic, music (applied arithmetic), geometry, astronomy (applied geometry). Sometimes you can also study theology, law, or medicine. I would definitely choose theology. They only read Aristotle, calling him 'the Philosopher,' which is true. The German system seems similar to this model, but in a Lutheran context. German rigor is unmatched in academia. Maybe I will be able to go to a German university.
I have to go now, I forgot that I have a piano lesson in the center. Thanks for reading.
(Daily) - [13.11.2024, 13:17]
The Danube breathes deeply;
the sun draws a sign of the cross.
The day rises to work;
the night sets out towards Moscow.
In the lake rests a corpse;
a dead body in silence.
My brother, the soldier, returns
home; he lies peacefully on the shore.
(Poems) - [13.11.2024]